refeed-om

My aunt passed away and today my family all got together and it was so early in the morning and we got to bed so late last night and I just didn't prepare.  I suck.  I just wasn't ready.  I started small but the day just turned into a big, carb-y, fatty reload.  Loading.  at the end of the round.  I don't know!  I'm curious about the results though, because I ate absolutely NO sugar.  but I did probably consume like 4000 calories.  Obviously my weight will be up tomorrow, but I wonder if I'll have boosted my metabolism.  meh.  shrug.  whatever.  if it takes me til the end of this round to get back down to 136-so be it.  Just saw some pictures of myself from today (before eating) and I didn't photograph much skinnier than before.  So it looks like I still have ten more lbs to lose anyway.  we'll handle that in another round...  might even take a planned interruption for Oli's birthday and then do another 15 days on p2

takes fat to lose fat

I am very excited about my 1.6lb drop today.  I'm convinced it's because of the almonds.  Yes, ate more almonds yesterday.  and ate beef TWICE.  AND DIDN'T CUT ALL VISIBLE FAT OFF MY STEAK.  and I lost a bunch of weight.  Wish I had realized this earlier in the round but every time I eat a little more fat an usual, I drop a little more weight than usual.

So I'm thinking about it... and I'm feeling rogue.

oops

so today I am down .2lbs.  I'm actually a little surprised I'm down at all.  I didn't sleep well, I think I might have had too much water, and... I *gasp* cheated.  YES, cheated.  "Hilarious" because I just told someone yesterday morning that I hadn't cheated once, then that night I ate 11 almonds.  HAH.  I thought that it was going to turn into a binge thing but I felt completely satisfied with 11 almonds.  Entirely content.  Not eating them after that (and right now)... not a problem.  I don't want to be one of those people who cheats and then goes "I just think my body needed Chips Ahoy cookies; I think we should listen to our bodies."
BUT
I do think my body needed those almonds.  I'm not sure if it's because I'm now anemic because of/causing a month long period or if my body just wants fat.  My vote is on the anemia... next time I get a craving for almonds I'm just going to eat more beef.  And I'm going to try to take an iron supplement, if I can find one that isn't useless.

and I may take this back tomorrow or Thursday but I just have a good feeling about having eaten those almonds.  I wonder if sometimes people produce so much cortisol stressing about cheats that they gain.