ready to move on

my dedication to p2 is waning... it's not that I'm tempted by junk food or anything (thought actually grosses me out)... I'm just... ready to move on... even though there are still losses to be had... I'm hungrier, I'm less content.

I was kind of bad today.  Did this survey at the mall where I had a few sips of vitamin water and a bite of a saltine (to cleanse the palate).  I think the saltine bite can count for the melba I skipped, and probably any sugar from the vitamin water was burned immediately as I walked ALL DAY today.  I didn't drink enough water.  I'm trying to make up for it now... we'll see.  I ate Fage 0% but felt REALLY hungry afterward so also had 3.5 oz of steak.  No vegetables though (I'm out).  Ate too many fucking almonds... I'm just feeling so meh.... so unsatisfied by everything (except fat)... so wanting to move on.

Tomorrow, if there's a loss... no injection... I'm moving on.  If there is a gain, I'll go until I get back to 136 and then I'll move on.  I know I only have four injections left so... who knows I might feel better in the morning (or worse) and feel okay about going about the entire 4 days.

Going about 1.5hrs away to Tonica to attend my aunt's funeral... will be out there all day... not sure what I'm going to do to stay on protocol... guess I'll have to make food in the morning to bring.

not now

Down just .4 lbs today. Went to a party yesterday.  Did pretty well.
Didn't lose as well this morning though so for my own records here's what I ate yesterday:

• 1 sip of vodka/7up
• 1.75 apples
• .5 wasa cracker
• 1oz cucumber
• 1 oz of celery
• roughly 6 oz of chicken (that had touched the fat of other meats on the grill and thus, was delicious)
• 1 thumbnail size shrimp from a pasta salad (wasn't even that good)
• 2 or 3 diet 7-ups
• 1 cup of Smooth Move tea

I also TOUCHED a lot of fat as helped prepare food.  I don't really have to do anything special to fix this behavior since it's only my party behavior and I'm out of parties for the moment.  Plan on starting p3 on Oli's birthday exactly.

Oh, other changes... I didn't take a nap as I usually do and I did not sleep well AT ALL last night.  I could probably go back to sleep and lose more but there's too much shit to do today.

145lbs today.  wish it were better, glad it's not worse.