is it fat?

down .8 today to 136!

and I'm SURPRISED... because yesterday, I skipped my first fruit, ate my eggs and only threw away one yolk instead of tossing the usual 2, ate almonds in the middle of the day, ate a 5oz steak for dinner (with fat) and cut up cucumbers and onions and ate them with... RANCH DRESSING ZOMG.  then ate even more almonds.

So the fat experiment continues, though... it's only been going on for 3 or 4 days... need MOAR EVIDENCE.

what is this?  it's awesome!  why am I asking what it is?  I'm the one who found it.

not including today, I have a total of 4 injections and weigh-ins left.  My lofty-probz-not-gonna-happen goal was to get down to 132.  That's probz-not-gonna-happen, but It's possibly I get down to 134!

I'm three-fourths done with this phase, and I've lost three-fourths of the weight that I wanted to lose.


I gained slightly today, .2#, and even though I know it's probably because I sucked at drinking water yesterday and I ate too much salt, I'm sort of glad to see just .2 lbs and to feel kind of dry and bloated at the same time.  I was a little worried that the 1.6# loss wasn't real and was going to come back.  This solidifies that loss.


Lotsa water for me today!

takes fat to lose fat

I am very excited about my 1.6lb drop today.  I'm convinced it's because of the almonds.  Yes, ate more almonds yesterday.  and ate beef TWICE.  AND DIDN'T CUT ALL VISIBLE FAT OFF MY STEAK.  and I lost a bunch of weight.  Wish I had realized this earlier in the round but every time I eat a little more fat an usual, I drop a little more weight than usual.

So I'm thinking about it... and I'm feeling rogue.

inches!

this morning I was only down .2 at 138.4, but... I measured my waist and it was a whole .5 inch down from just a week ago... which means I've lost 2 inches overall.

I am 2/3rds of the way done with p2.  I have (including today's) 9 more injections and (including today) 11 more days of low calorie.  It's almost over!  I think I'll get down to 135 by the end of it... then hopefully I drop down just a little bit more so I can have lost 20 lbs.

onward ho!

so it's day 21... so I've completed 3 weeks of vlcd... WOW.  just 10 more days to go... which also means it's 10 days until my son Oliver turns 3.  Can't wait to make a sugarfree cheesecake!

I'm feeling good about my losses (was 1.2 lbs down this morning- awesome) but I'm not excited about blogging.  I don't really know what's what or why some things happen.  I haven't taken good enough accounts of my meal plans to notice any patterns.  I will say this, I've eaten taco bell twice and lost well the next day both times.  I've been veering from protocol lately... today I had eggs and onions and tomatoes and spinach for lunch and ground beef in spaghetti sauce (sugar free!) for dinner.  Kind of don't care but the spaghetti sauce has olive oil as an ingredient and has 1g of fat.  It was really good.

At this point, I'd like to drop about 4 more lbs... but I'm feeling good where I am.  I don't really care.  I've never been in the 130s as an adult and here I am and I feel... pretty much the same... so there you have it and there it is.

minus 10000

and we made it

So I'm finally into the 130s... very much just tiptoed over the line.  It's getting harder and harder to find images for some reason so I had to go to some stupid generator and generate this one:

 

took a pretty big dose of potassium last night on accident but nothing happened... it didn't dry me out nor did it make my leg cramps go away AND I didn't have any heart problems.  Either I'm very K deficient or this bottle is crap.  Next time I almost accidentally OD on something, I WANT TO FEEL IT.  Actually... despite the concern of the ladies on the hcg message board, I wasn't anywhere NEAR critical levels.  I've been reading about people taking what I took (600mg) 3X a day... I'll never almost die!

ehhhhh

back down to 140.4 today... getting annoyed.  not going to bother posting the same picture.  meeehhhhh.  I had to eat a few bites of steak just go to bed last night... period is making me all crave-y and hungry.

another gain

So another little .2lb gain... very annoying.   I did walk a lot yesterday but I know I don't drink enough water AND, although I've had my period THIS ENTIRE TIME, it's really heavy right now.  I've been a bit hungrier these past few days.

Still, it's not too discouraging, because I look and feel skinnier fo sho, but I was hoping to get down to 132 by day 30.  The weight loss will really have to ramp up to reach that goal.  WHY WON'T YOU GO INTO THE 130s BODY?!  ARE YOU FUCKING WITH ME?!

gain

So I gained .2lbs.  I'm totally not tripping... I ate most of my food and drank most of my water pretty late last night.  Also, I've been very near protocol but I haven't been on protocol exactly completely 100% in a few days (ate beef for the last 4 meals and had non-lowfat beef on Sunday).  I will attempt to stay on protocol today and drink lots and lots of water.  I didn't expect to lose an entire pound yesterday so it's all good, my average still comes out to .67lbs/day and that is above average for women.

almost into the one-thirties

almost didn't post today because my neighbor's internet was down but now I have my own internet (and phone!) so I'm back!

Ate all beef yesterday (hamburger and steak) and am down a whopping 1 lb today.  I'm halfway through with p2!

it's a miracle that i lost anything but I had a long night and don't much feel like talking about myself.

ate taco bell (beef, scooped out of shells, forgot to specify chicken) then over-ate p2 foods later because I was really crave-y.

not to scale

I think I'm still moving.  I thought I had a handle on my scale but this morning it's giving me 4 different weights.  I've decided to go with the one in the middle, since they're all had roughly the same frequency.

I didn't think I was going to lose this morning (and maybe I didn't... weird scale) but I'll take the loss.  Today is the end of week 2.  I lost 3 lbs this week.  Not bad.  Since I've lost 10.2 lbs overall (net, I'm not counting loading gains), I'm averaging about .73lb loss per day.  I seriously see that going down to about .5 but, so far I've been surprised by my ability to lose on this diet.  I knew it would work but I thought it would be a much bigger struggle.  If I can keep up the 3 lbs/week from this point forward, I will be okay... I'd end at about 135lbs... my goal is 132 lbs so schwatever, that's really close.

Yesterday (and I would call this a "cheat" really), I went off protocol and had almond milk in my coffee instead of bovine milk.  Didn't seem to be a problem.  I wouldn't even have needed milk if the lady at the Target Starbucks didn't add a sickening amount of sugar-free hazelnut syrup to my iced coffee.  I also had trouble sleeping last night.  This may or may not be due to drinking iced coffee at 10PM.

moving along nicely!

Yesterday I didn't eat perfectly... apple in the morning as usual, but then I went to my friend's house all day.  Brought a chicken breast with me (left it there and don't care.  hate chicken now.) and could not bring myself to eat it.  Drank a lot of water, munched on a handful of grape tomatoes... that was it.  We took the kids to Portillo's (if you're not from the Greater Chicagoland Area, Portillo's is a chain of hotdog/hamburger/ribs/etc restaurants) and I had a grilled chicken sandwich, minus bread and mayo.  I'm sure the chicken wasn't actually cooked in fat but it was probably cooked on the same equipment as greasy hamburgers.  It was also probably about 4-5oz, not 3.5oz.  Came home around 8 and felt munchy so I had two grissini sticks.  That was all of my food for the day.

Found my bottle of ketostix from when I did Atkins and decided to test one out (coincidentally, the ketostix expire on the very last day of p2) just for the hell of it.  It was dark!  I was surprised, what with having eaten only grissini in the last few hours.  Thought it might be a fluke so I did it again this morning... darker.  Ketosis supposedly doesn't matter on this diet but I think it's a good sign that fat is being broken down.

so yeah... wasn't expecting to lose but was down .6 at 142.4!  huzzah!  130s here I come!

alright alright alright!

Ok... so I'm down .6 today... which is great, though, to be honest I was expecting a pound or two... but whatever... just glad to see movement!

Not sure what "broke" my slow down, or if it was anything at all, but I'm going to continue what I did yesterday: more liquids (not just water because I can't drink more water because it's grossing me out), no tomatoes, more sleep, more toilet time and that's really about it.

143.8!  good work, body.

the same

this period has to go away.  I'm totally bloated, and I'm not losing any weight.  today I lost ZERO pounds.  booo.

I'm going to try revisiting my menu from the first week, and I'm going to try to eat all of my allowable food, even though I don't feel like it.

NOTHING, not even a little.

slow

I lost another .4lbs but I'm really waiting for something bigger.  I realize though that I have never weighed this little (for more than a day or two) in my entire adult life and TEEN life even.  Many many many many years.  So... if my body wants to take it's time, so be it.  I have three weeks left and only about 10-15 more pounds til my goal for this round.

Anyway, short and sweet.  Today I weighed in at 144.4.  Didn't do anything off protocol yesterday except eat salsa as my vegetable at lunch and forgot to eat second fruit.  Also forgot second melba.

here comes the slowest train ever

Just took my last dose of the first mixing.  I'm 4/15ths done with p2.

sigh

Still massively bloated and periody.  Was disappointed to only be down .2 this morning.  Haven't been sleeping well though and haven't been taking my normal naps (I know, I'm a little old for naps but someday I'll be working 60 hours a week and there won't be naps anymore so I'm taking them while I can!)... but maybe I'll get a big drop tomorrow if I drink a shit ton of water today.

Jalepenos aren't technically on protocol but I've been eating my fish with salsa as my vegetable.  I have to figure out how to make things interesting; I don't want to eat anymore.

Except today.  Today I'm pretty hungry.  I think my hcg is losing it's effectiveness since I'm on my second to last dose.  I'm going to remix tonight.

It's getting harder and harder to find pictures for this task.

not now

Down just .4 lbs today. Went to a party yesterday.  Did pretty well.
Didn't lose as well this morning though so for my own records here's what I ate yesterday:

• 1 sip of vodka/7up
• 1.75 apples
• .5 wasa cracker
• 1oz cucumber
• 1 oz of celery
• roughly 6 oz of chicken (that had touched the fat of other meats on the grill and thus, was delicious)
• 1 thumbnail size shrimp from a pasta salad (wasn't even that good)
• 2 or 3 diet 7-ups
• 1 cup of Smooth Move tea

I also TOUCHED a lot of fat as helped prepare food.  I don't really have to do anything special to fix this behavior since it's only my party behavior and I'm out of parties for the moment.  Plan on starting p3 on Oli's birthday exactly.

Oh, other changes... I didn't take a nap as I usually do and I did not sleep well AT ALL last night.  I could probably go back to sleep and lose more but there's too much shit to do today.

145lbs today.  wish it were better, glad it's not worse.

when I'll be impressed

So this morning my weight was down .8, not as high as any other day, but totally fine with me, so far this week, I'm averaging about 1.1 pounds a day.  If you count my loading weight, it's even higher.

I have barely been eating my vegetables or last fruit... sooo not interested.  I get my protein in though and I never skip my morning apple.  I want to try this chili that I've been hearing about on the forums but apparently tomatoes and beef stall people.  I'll try it when I get a little further in.  So far all of this weight lost seems tentative, like it could all go away in a day (which is true, if I just quit the diet and don't stabilize).

My lowest weight in my adult life was this spring, 141.8.  When I beat that with this diet, I'll be impressed.



Just .8 down at 145.4

what is this?  I don't even know.

one tenth of the way there

I was sure that I wasn't going to lose anything this morning... I made mac and cheese for the family last night and I so, so wanted some, even though the exact same-tasting mac and cheese will be available for consumption in 3 months, I felt like this was the last box.  I got over my cravings, didn't even eat a noodle, but splurged on Truvia.  Truvia is not on protocol but I've been eating it (in small amounts!  I'm not that into sugar) every day with no problems so far.  Night before last, around dinner time, I only ate about 1/2 of my protein and didn't eat my fruit or vegetables but last night I ate everything available to me.  I'm pretty sure my fish was more than 100grams.

I even dipped my strawberries in Truvia.  I guess this isn't weird to people, because the logo for Truvia is a strawberry dipped in Truvia, but I have a thing about making sweet things sweeter: it's unnecessary and fucking gross.  Strawberries in sugar I guess isn't so bad since it's like dessert, but the things people do to sweet potatoes!  disgusting!

Also disgusting, I thought I was constipated because I hadn't gone at my normal time (should have been yesterday morning) so I drank some Smooth Move tea last night and that is probably some of my weight this morning.  That shit works, and a little too well.   I must not have been constipated because there was never anything hard and on the third toilet trip it was all water.  I've been drinking water to compensate.  I don't expect to lose as much, or any, tomorrow, but I say that everyday and have always been surprised.

One amazing thing, then I'll tell you my weight and you'll be done hearing about my bowels, when you do low carb you lose so much water weight and you feel all unbloated and ready to get into smaller jeans right away.  On this diet, I am losing but I still feel bloated and unwilling to try on smaller clothes.  Probably just the period.  When this stupid period goes away I should probably lose more water weight.

OK so today's weight: 146.2!  That's 1.6lbs down from yesterday and 5.8lbs over all!  We'll see how tomorrow goes- no tears if there isn't a loss.