oops

so today I am down .2lbs.  I'm actually a little surprised I'm down at all.  I didn't sleep well, I think I might have had too much water, and... I *gasp* cheated.  YES, cheated.  "Hilarious" because I just told someone yesterday morning that I hadn't cheated once, then that night I ate 11 almonds.  HAH.  I thought that it was going to turn into a binge thing but I felt completely satisfied with 11 almonds.  Entirely content.  Not eating them after that (and right now)... not a problem.  I don't want to be one of those people who cheats and then goes "I just think my body needed Chips Ahoy cookies; I think we should listen to our bodies."
BUT
I do think my body needed those almonds.  I'm not sure if it's because I'm now anemic because of/causing a month long period or if my body just wants fat.  My vote is on the anemia... next time I get a craving for almonds I'm just going to eat more beef.  And I'm going to try to take an iron supplement, if I can find one that isn't useless.

and I may take this back tomorrow or Thursday but I just have a good feeling about having eaten those almonds.  I wonder if sometimes people produce so much cortisol stressing about cheats that they gain.

onward ho!

so it's day 21... so I've completed 3 weeks of vlcd... WOW.  just 10 more days to go... which also means it's 10 days until my son Oliver turns 3.  Can't wait to make a sugarfree cheesecake!

I'm feeling good about my losses (was 1.2 lbs down this morning- awesome) but I'm not excited about blogging.  I don't really know what's what or why some things happen.  I haven't taken good enough accounts of my meal plans to notice any patterns.  I will say this, I've eaten taco bell twice and lost well the next day both times.  I've been veering from protocol lately... today I had eggs and onions and tomatoes and spinach for lunch and ground beef in spaghetti sauce (sugar free!) for dinner.  Kind of don't care but the spaghetti sauce has olive oil as an ingredient and has 1g of fat.  It was really good.

At this point, I'd like to drop about 4 more lbs... but I'm feeling good where I am.  I don't really care.  I've never been in the 130s as an adult and here I am and I feel... pretty much the same... so there you have it and there it is.

minus 10000

ehhhhh

back down to 140.4 today... getting annoyed.  not going to bother posting the same picture.  meeehhhhh.  I had to eat a few bites of steak just go to bed last night... period is making me all crave-y and hungry.

sigh

Still massively bloated and periody.  Was disappointed to only be down .2 this morning.  Haven't been sleeping well though and haven't been taking my normal naps (I know, I'm a little old for naps but someday I'll be working 60 hours a week and there won't be naps anymore so I'm taking them while I can!)... but maybe I'll get a big drop tomorrow if I drink a shit ton of water today.

Jalepenos aren't technically on protocol but I've been eating my fish with salsa as my vegetable.  I have to figure out how to make things interesting; I don't want to eat anymore.

Except today.  Today I'm pretty hungry.  I think my hcg is losing it's effectiveness since I'm on my second to last dose.  I'm going to remix tonight.

It's getting harder and harder to find pictures for this task.